The World seems to be upside down
we laugh we smile we hide a frown
Our purpose once so important and everlasting
has surely taken on a new casting
this stage we set ourselves upon
as we rush around
and look beyond
always striving to do the best
and putting ourselves to the longest test
when really we animals in human clothing
as we hate, love, bully and often loathing
others who are better than we
if we sit and take it easy
we are seen to be twee!
life is a game
survival of the fittest
birth, live, wear out die
thats what we do
with an interlude of importantance just in view
we should really just take time to be with our families
that is what we need the most
please give a toast!
to that!
the other stuff just doesnt matter
families should be together
and that is that
the blood flows through us and should be as one
and if not
we fall apart
and the day is done
the World 2020
has stretched too far
and now its at a crux
and will need a bar
to appreciate the simple things in life
like birds singing
and a simple life
so take is easy
strive for less “things”
they dont make you happy
just sing
with your family and friends
not in little boxes on your own
where you will just die with a groan


Here is a little ditty for Saturday, not done a poem in ages, this is a pix of my children when they were young playing in the snow, many moons ago! they are grown up now. I wonder if it will snow this year?
the snow has fallen
oh what fun
my children go out
look cute
its just begun
snow ball fights
and snow men too
slip slidding on the frost
is something you just have to do!
its really cold and icy
but we dont care
there is so much fun to share
on a snowy winter day together
we dont really mind the weather
we jump and laugh and have such laughs too
the snowy world is such a lovely view!
Then once we have had enough and feel chilly
will go indoors no willy nilly (whatever that means!)
and mum and dad will have hot chocolate for us
take off our wet clothes and make a fuss
and comfy on the sofa we will be
to watch some cartoons on the TV!
Til next time when we venture out
like a little girl guide or boy scout
and play outside
it is the best
fresh air in our lungs whatever the weather
rain snow or shine and just being together

letter to Toni my counsellor

Hi Toni
thank you for your email.
The list of tips was very good
I sent an email regarding the badge to buy but did not get a reply, please resend link
I am still sustaining further sight loss to glaucoma.  It is like a fading picture with more white mist and millions of little black and white dots, it is horrible to be sure but am getting more determination to stay independent.  I did not cry this morning.  I usually wake and am very upset.  Today the vision is a lot worse.
I have just had my tescos delivery of food so have to put that away shortly. 
Not much else planned for the day but may go for a walk later.
Yesterday i went for a walk witha lady from The Ramblers at social distance of course which was nice to get out and go for a longer walk with my Guide Dog.  I felt i had acomplished something after that and a bit healthier too though a bit tired this morning.
I still can see a bit but am worried when it will all go to white mist as dont feel prepared for it and espcially being on my own here.
I have Soundscape on my iphone, i find the voice over very difficult to use and was wondering whether to get an android phone with voice over do you know which ones have this, i will ask the RNIB tech group.
So today i will take it easy and get used to a further layer of sight loss Toni
I hope this finds you well and staying safe also
kind regards

When i needed you the most

When i need you the most

you were a ghost

When i needed you the most and i felt different

you turned away from me cos i was not my old self

you left me on the shelf

it was at this time

i needed you the most

to make me some toast

a cuppa tea

and just be

with me

when i needed you the most

you went away

i felt so sad

as i needed someone

Often when people are unhappy, overwhelmed and out of sorts, their friends and family see them in their different light and cannot cope with it so they leave them alone and turn away. It is in fact at this time that they need someone the most to be with them to give them support love and kindness. To be even more isolated and rejected can cause the feelings of not wanting to live anymore and that they are no longer needed. We all need to feel that we ok and things are right and happy,t is the survival of the fittest game, as usual as humans are animals after all. Just remember if someone is sad and out of sorts they need a hug and someone to talk to and to feel they are worthy. Perhaps they are not wearing the clothes you like, their hair is a mess, they are too thin or too fat whatever is normally astetically pleasing not there! Remember it is easy to love and care for someone who looks beautiful and has a perfect seemingly life but it much harder to love someone who is not that way….

Stars above…

i see the stars

each one twinkles

it represents something in my life

so much as passed

so much happiness, tears, toil and regrets

it passes

through time

my time

and others

and wonder the “what ifs” of it all

and how i did too much anyway

and should have sat

and relaxed

the time past

it is gone

and the future to be behold

whats left….

Too many…. too much….

too many people

too many ideas

too much pushing and pulling

too many people with the RIGHT idea

too many people with CONFLICTING IDEAS

too many people without understanding

too many people without patience

too much experience too little consistency

too much to expect

too much to think about doing but need not

too much to say you care or love

too much bother to have empathy

too much litter

too much polution

too muh food

too much starvation

too much disease

too much cruelty

to much business, too busy too busy too busy

too many cars on the road

too must waste food

too many starving people

too much mental illness

too much interference

too many wars

too much violence

For what we need in this World is Peace and that energy put into saving the plant or finding another terra forma to live on in the future for our children? Does that make what we do every day seem insignificant? In this great Universe, where we each and everyone of us think we are so important, as we stumble and mumble about our day? in a very professional way, i may add?

God Bless You All

It Is All Too Much To Think About……


The sun was shining 

It was a beautiful autumn day

She sat quietAnd reflected on the maddest around her

The people babbling in her ears 
With advice And loudness 

And the sadness in her life

And wondered what the next step would be 

People had no patience nor time nor real understanding, 

who would

i wouldnt myself

She could not see much now 
The glaucoma has eaten away her sight

And soul

There was a small glimmer of hope

As everyone had rushed to get away..

so as not to deal with….

.Where was that comfy place

Where was it 

That which would bring solace to her life 

at least….


A rose with beautiful scent

lay on the table

its aroma filled the room

and i know that this was not the end

but the beginning of something wonderful…..

as the scent permiated the whole house

and deleted the negivity with a new story of beauty, hope and happiness….


yes its more faded…

where should i be…

this blind woman alone…

clutching at straws….


no-one wants to be near me….

its a struggle…

they do not know how it really is….

those that see, family…

the tears….

oh to have a normal happy life

like all those others….

my life…. in a nutshell

it started out quite fine

i was neatly all in line

life was good and happy

from the day i wore a nappy!

i got through all my youth

and knew all the truth

went to workand often played

and  life seemed oh so ok

i married and thought great

it wasnt just too late

all friends had married young

whilst i tried to have some fun

my three children i had quite quickly

and love to bits so deeply

but the husband got so cross

and i then decided to run off

not used to such adversity

my family were friends and calm

so it did me a lot of harm

my poor kiddies too

we all had to shooo!

many paths i since then tread

and many challenges i fed

and now im on the blink

on my ownand down the sink

its goggle eyes and more

as i run for the door

so help me pleasefind some peace

in my heart

as i try to make a new start

to end the rest of my days in peace

on a blanket made of fleece