today i feel very lonely…. only spoken to one person, Stanton on phone, from the church, seen no-one…. Shrewsbury arghhhh! and Advanced Glaucoma advancing in my eyes…. still… it is horrible beyond words this existance as it is, i feel really out of my depth with it, a mangled mirror in depth i see, and getting more mangled by the minute!!!
I want to go home! I want my mum!!! this is not pleasant, maybe if i could see ok it would be bearable and i would paint a picture… but this glaucoma is awful awful awful… and the loneliness, i wish i had stayed in Southend on Sea, Essex my home ground…. take me back…. let me keep what little sight i have this is a nightmare made of bad dreams!
Chrissy has gone camping, so she wont be popping in…. oh dear, it was a mistake to come to this sleepy place where i hardly know anyone and it is hard to find new friends when i have this glaucoma! Too ambitious i believe i was thinking it would work out ok!
help HELP and more HELP!!!!
