Have patience for those around you And understand their feelings We all have different premise with very different meaning tis true As you rush around in your “busy” world remember to take hold of what is good and true and have some thought for those that need and truly dearly love you
this is a rant only – my situation – i was referred to Birmingham Eye Clinic from Shrewsbury eye clinis as i have advanced glaucoma to have an Aqueus shunt implant to drain the fluid that causes glaucoma, as the drops dont work and the tablets they give you make you feel like you cant move. This was over 17 weeks ago! During this time, i have lost loads more vision, the net curtain is thickening and i sent a message to the hospital via PALS few days ago to see what was happening with this. It could help stop me losing all my sight it is a possibility but whilst i have waited all this time i have lost loads of sight! I sat here this moring with Katy my cat on my lap wondering how on earth i am going to cope on my own in this increased mist situation when i receive the call from hospital today. So the best they can do is give me a pre-op appointment for 9th December and no sign of the op til New Year. The lady on the phone asked what else could she do, i said a pair of bionic eyes would be helpful so i could see to do my shopping and practical things in life as normal. Birmingham hospital is hour and half aways drive, so will have to cadge a lift. If i was in Southend, it would be 10 minutes or even walk of 20 and my brother would take me. At this moment in time i feel numb with looking through a thicker net curtain grateful for having Katy on my lap purring and trying not to cry and feel very lonely with it as dont have a partner or husband to make me a cuppa or lend a shoulder to cry on…. life is pretty much lemons….when Christmas spirit should begin to prevail… and i guess, going to the hospital could be a risk with this COVID thing going on? So what do i do, not bother with it in case i catch COVID or take a chance and perhaps save a bit of my eyesight thats left? I am going to move back to Southend then have it done there in handy locality? i am now really fed up with all the traipsing i have done from one of the county to another, ousted out of my marriage home by my bullying husband in my comfy home in Hockley, where i loved living to live in Southend and then coming up here to be near Chrissy and Mike which is very nice but i feel very lonely and isolated and out of my depth as dont know the area very well and sustained more sight loss since been here as well as a panamdemic! When i first came here i had much optismism maybe too much and my sight was actually good for what it was and had planned to carry on my counselling course and other activities and didnt need lots of help but really since the pandemic my sight has got worse, so maybe it is the stress of it all moving, change, panamdemic or maybe it would have happened anyway. Either way it is lemons that need to be sweetened and practical solutions with happiness thrown in as a welcome bonus,
so it must be easy to find your underpants in the morning must it and make your dinner if you cant see!
The World seems to be upside down we laugh we smile we hide a frown Our purpose once so important and everlasting has surely taken on a new casting this stage we set ourselves upon as we rush around and look beyond always striving to do the best and putting ourselves to the longest test when really we animals in human clothing as we hate, love, bully and often loathing others who are better than we if we sit and take it easy we are seen to be twee! life is a game survival of the fittest birth, live, wear out die thats what we do with an interlude of importantance just in view we should really just take time to be with our families that is what we need the most please give a toast! to that! the other stuff just doesnt matter families should be together and that is that the blood flows through us and should be as one and if not we fall apart and the day is done the World 2020 has stretched too far and now its at a crux and will need a bar to appreciate the simple things in life like birds singing sunshine and a simple life so take is easy strive for less “things” they dont make you happy just sing with your family and friends together not in little boxes on your own where you will just die with a groan
Here is a little ditty for Saturday, not done a poem in ages, this is a pix of my children when they were young playing in the snow, many moons ago! they are grown up now. I wonder if it will snow this year? SNOW FUN the snow has fallen oh what fun my children go out look cute its just begun snow ball fights and snow men too slip slidding on the frost is something you just have to do! its really cold and icy but we dont care there is so much fun to share on a snowy winter day together we dont really mind the weather we jump and laugh and have such laughs too the snowy world is such a lovely view! Then once we have had enough and feel chilly will go indoors no willy nilly (whatever that means!) and mum and dad will have hot chocolate for us take off our wet clothes and make a fuss and comfy on the sofa we will be to watch some cartoons on the TV! Til next time when we venture out like a little girl guide or boy scout and play outside it is the best fresh air in our lungs whatever the weather rain snow or shine and just being together LETS HAVE FUN! Rosypoems.com copyright
Hi Toni thank you for your email. The list of tips was very good I sent an email regarding the badge to buy but did not get a reply, please resend link I am still sustaining further sight loss to glaucoma. It is like a fading picture with more white mist and millions of little black and white dots, it is horrible to be sure but am getting more determination to stay independent. I did not cry this morning. I usually wake and am very upset. Today the vision is a lot worse. I have just had my tescos delivery of food so have to put that away shortly. Not much else planned for the day but may go for a walk later. Yesterday i went for a walk witha lady from The Ramblers at social distance of course which was nice to get out and go for a longer walk with my Guide Dog. I felt i had acomplished something after that and a bit healthier too though a bit tired this morning. I still can see a bit but am worried when it will all go to white mist as dont feel prepared for it and espcially being on my own here. I have Soundscape on my iphone, i find the voice over very difficult to use and was wondering whether to get an android phone with voice over do you know which ones have this, i will ask the RNIB tech group. So today i will take it easy and get used to a further layer of sight loss Toni I hope this finds you well and staying safe also kind regards Rosy
Often when people are unhappy, overwhelmed and out of sorts, their friends and family see them in their different light and cannot cope with it so they leave them alone and turn away. It is in fact at this time that they need someone the most to be with them to give them support love and kindness. To be even more isolated and rejected can cause the feelings of not wanting to live anymore and that they are no longer needed. We all need to feel that we ok and things are right and happy,t is the survival of the fittest game, as usual as humans are animals after all. Just remember if someone is sad and out of sorts they need a hug and someone to talk to and to feel they are worthy. Perhaps they are not wearing the clothes you like, their hair is a mess, they are too thin or too fat whatever is normally astetically pleasing not there! Remember it is easy to love and care for someone who looks beautiful and has a perfect seemingly life but it much harder to love someone who is not that way….