The Swing

When I was a child

I remember the swing

In the garden

My dad had made it of wood

And there it stood

sat on the swing

So high I swung

It was the dawn

Fresh day

My life just begun

The dew on the grass glistened Like a million little lights

I imagined they were fairies

As they twinkled bright

I’d swing higher and higher

As high as I could

On the dear old swing

Made of wood

It creaked very much

But I didn’t mind

It was a great feeling

No other kind

Swinging high

So high

Then off I’d jump

With a thump

The birds were singing

And the day so quiet

Like me

I said not a word

Whilst the whole of the World could be heard

I’d listen

And watch those fairies glisten

It was another day

Childhood days so innocent I cherish themIn my memory

Peaceful days

Of happy times

No strife

Just a simple family life

With my mum my dad my brother My aunties and uncles Cousins grandmothers

Our pet dog

A budgie too

Life was just grand

Through and through

We all got on,we laughed a lot, we loved each other

Happy days Days like this there could be no other

We’d meet for tea and celebrations

Tea the very heart of our nation!

Around a table altogether

Whatever the climate

Whatever the weather

Happy daze

Image may contain: 2 people, shoes, dog, child and outdoor

Photo of my brother and I on the swing with our dog Trixie

second verse

Have patience for those around you
And understand their feelings
We all have different premise
with very different meaning
tis true
As you rush around in your “busy” world
remember to take hold of what is good and true
and have some thought
for those that need
and truly dearly love you

Yourself

Take a moment to have peace 

Take a breath

And sit quietly 

Do not judge 

Do not ridicule 

Do not listen to the gossiping 

Have strength in your humble status 

Let those with anger and ridicule pass you by

As you breath in peace 

None of this matters 

But the peace you have In your heart

Which is the strength 

Which will take you forward 

To where you need to be 

With Gods grace S

Set you free 

Christmas Tree

little Christmas tree

just look at me

with my tinsel and my lights

i am so pretty

light up the room

im cheerful with all my might

ill have some present put around the floor

and we will have some fun

such fun

like never before

toys aplenty, chocolate santas

bottles of coke and some orange fanta!

Cant wait to have some fun at Christmas time

So sing a song and make it a happy time

rant on rosy…..

this is a rant only – my situation – i was referred to Birmingham Eye Clinic from Shrewsbury eye clinis as i have advanced glaucoma to have an Aqueus shunt implant to drain the fluid that causes glaucoma, as the drops dont work and the tablets they give you make you feel like you cant move. This was over 17 weeks ago! During this time, i have lost loads more vision, the net curtain is thickening and i sent a message to the hospital via PALS few days ago to see what was happening with this. It could help stop me losing all my sight it is a possibility but whilst i have waited all this time i have lost loads of sight! I sat here this moring with Katy my cat on my lap wondering how on earth i am going to cope on my own in this increased mist situation when i receive the call from hospital today. So the best they can do is give me a pre-op appointment for 9th December and no sign of the op til New Year. The lady on the phone asked what else could she do, i said a pair of bionic eyes would be helpful so i could see to do my shopping and practical things in life as normal. Birmingham hospital is hour and half aways drive, so will have to cadge a lift. If i was in Southend, it would be 10 minutes or even walk of 20 and my brother would take me. At this moment in time i feel numb with looking through a thicker net curtain grateful for having Katy on my lap purring and trying not to cry and feel very lonely with it as dont have a partner or husband to make me a cuppa or lend a shoulder to cry on…. life is pretty much lemons….when Christmas spirit should begin to prevail… and i guess, going to the hospital could be a risk with this COVID thing going on? So what do i do, not bother with it in case i catch COVID or take a chance and perhaps save a bit of my eyesight thats left? I am going to move back to Southend then have it done there in handy locality? i am now really fed up with all the traipsing i have done from one of the county to another, ousted out of my marriage home by my bullying husband in my comfy home in Hockley, where i loved living to live in Southend and then coming up here to be near Chrissy and Mike which is very nice but i feel very lonely and isolated and out of my depth as dont know the area very well and sustained more sight loss since been here as well as a panamdemic! When i first came here i had much optismism maybe too much and my sight was actually good for what it was and had planned to carry on my counselling course and other activities and didnt need lots of help but really since the pandemic my sight has got worse, so maybe it is the stress of it all moving, change, panamdemic or maybe it would have happened anyway. Either way it is lemons that need to be sweetened and practical solutions with happiness thrown in as a welcome bonus,

so it must be easy to find your underpants in the morning must it and make your dinner if you cant see!

2020

The World seems to be upside down
we laugh we smile we hide a frown
Our purpose once so important and everlasting
has surely taken on a new casting
this stage we set ourselves upon
as we rush around
and look beyond
always striving to do the best
and putting ourselves to the longest test
when really we animals in human clothing
as we hate, love, bully and often loathing
others who are better than we
if we sit and take it easy
we are seen to be twee!
life is a game
survival of the fittest
birth, live, wear out die
thats what we do
with an interlude of importantance just in view
we should really just take time to be with our families
that is what we need the most
please give a toast!
to that!
the other stuff just doesnt matter
families should be together
and that is that
the blood flows through us and should be as one
and if not
we fall apart
and the day is done
the World 2020
has stretched too far
and now its at a crux
and will need a bar
to appreciate the simple things in life
like birds singing
sunshine
and a simple life
so take is easy
strive for less “things”
they dont make you happy
just sing
with your family and friends
together
not in little boxes on your own
where you will just die with a groan

SNOW GAMES

Here is a little ditty for Saturday, not done a poem in ages, this is a pix of my children when they were young playing in the snow, many moons ago! they are grown up now. I wonder if it will snow this year?
SNOW FUN
the snow has fallen
oh what fun
my children go out
look cute
its just begun
snow ball fights
and snow men too
slip slidding on the frost
is something you just have to do!
its really cold and icy
but we dont care
there is so much fun to share
on a snowy winter day together
we dont really mind the weather
we jump and laugh and have such laughs too
the snowy world is such a lovely view!
Then once we have had enough and feel chilly
will go indoors no willy nilly (whatever that means!)
and mum and dad will have hot chocolate for us
take off our wet clothes and make a fuss
and comfy on the sofa we will be
to watch some cartoons on the TV!
Til next time when we venture out
like a little girl guide or boy scout
and play outside
it is the best
fresh air in our lungs whatever the weather
rain snow or shine and just being together
LETS HAVE FUN!
Rosypoems.com
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letter to Toni my counsellor

Hi Toni
thank you for your email.
The list of tips was very good
I sent an email regarding the badge to buy but did not get a reply, please resend link
I am still sustaining further sight loss to glaucoma.  It is like a fading picture with more white mist and millions of little black and white dots, it is horrible to be sure but am getting more determination to stay independent.  I did not cry this morning.  I usually wake and am very upset.  Today the vision is a lot worse.
I have just had my tescos delivery of food so have to put that away shortly. 
Not much else planned for the day but may go for a walk later.
Yesterday i went for a walk witha lady from The Ramblers at social distance of course which was nice to get out and go for a longer walk with my Guide Dog.  I felt i had acomplished something after that and a bit healthier too though a bit tired this morning.
I still can see a bit but am worried when it will all go to white mist as dont feel prepared for it and espcially being on my own here.
I have Soundscape on my iphone, i find the voice over very difficult to use and was wondering whether to get an android phone with voice over do you know which ones have this, i will ask the RNIB tech group.
So today i will take it easy and get used to a further layer of sight loss Toni
I hope this finds you well and staying safe also
kind regards
Rosy  

When i needed you the most

When i need you the most

you were a ghost

When i needed you the most and i felt different

you turned away from me cos i was not my old self

you left me on the shelf

it was at this time

i needed you the most

to make me some toast

a cuppa tea

and just be

with me

when i needed you the most

you went away

i felt so sad

as i needed someone

Often when people are unhappy, overwhelmed and out of sorts, their friends and family see them in their different light and cannot cope with it so they leave them alone and turn away. It is in fact at this time that they need someone the most to be with them to give them support love and kindness. To be even more isolated and rejected can cause the feelings of not wanting to live anymore and that they are no longer needed. We all need to feel that we ok and things are right and happy,t is the survival of the fittest game, as usual as humans are animals after all. Just remember if someone is sad and out of sorts they need a hug and someone to talk to and to feel they are worthy. Perhaps they are not wearing the clothes you like, their hair is a mess, they are too thin or too fat whatever is normally astetically pleasing not there! Remember it is easy to love and care for someone who looks beautiful and has a perfect seemingly life but it much harder to love someone who is not that way….

Stars above…

i see the stars

each one twinkles

it represents something in my life

so much as passed

so much happiness, tears, toil and regrets

it passes

through time

my time

and others

and wonder the “what ifs” of it all

and how i did too much anyway

and should have sat

and relaxed

the time past

it is gone

and the future to be behold

whats left….